I wish I could remember that first day

I wish I could remember that first day,
First hour, first moment of your meeting me,
If bright or dim the season, it might be
Summer or Winter for aught I can say;
So unrecorded did it slip away,
So blind was I to see and to foresee,
So dull to mark the budding of my tree
That would not blossom yet for many a May.
If only I could recollect it, such
A day of days! I let it come and go
As traceless as a thaw of bygone snow;
It seemed to mean so little, meant so much;
If only now I could recall that touch,
First touch of hand in hand – Did one but know!

Baby squeezes uncle Ryan’s hand and sleeps soundly…

Some things once you’ve loved them, become yours forever and if you try to let them go, they only circle back and return to you. They become part of who you are. Or they destroy you.

Allen Ginsberg, Kill Your Darlings

I have no idea when this photo was taken – all I know is that it’s within the last 4 years, but I found it buried in a folder amongst some other random photos. Anyway, this is obviously our beloved Lucy, who died on February 24th 2014 aged 22. I’m still holding her ashes for the family… nobody really knows what to do with them, and although I happy being her custodian, it’s time she found her final resting place. But, I believe she’s already at peace and either at Rainbow Bridge waiting for our return, or in her spiritual forever home…

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You may remember seeing a viral video in May 2012 titled ‘It Could Happen To You’ made by the actor and singer-songwriter Shane Bitney Crone. It told the story of his life with long-term partner Tom Bridegroom – both were young men from small town America, who met, fell in love, and shared a life together. But when Tom died unexpectedly in a tragic accident, Shane found himself with no legal rights to contest Tom’s parents, who denounced their partnership and barred him from going to the funeral. If the original viral video wasn’t touching and heart wrenching enough, this film expands on the story by piecing together footage of the pair together, as well as using new interviews with Shane, and with his and Tom’s families. Although it’s ultimately a tragic tale, it does have hopeful undertones. Bill Clinton introduced the film at the Tribeca Film Festival, where he called it “a story about our nation’s struggle to make one more step in forming a more perfect union, for which marriage is both the symbol and substance.” A story of such universal love can only serve to help the quest for legal equality around the world.

~ Bridegroom shows at the BFI Flare London LGBT Film Festival on March 22, 27 & 29, 2013

Here’s the original video:


I’ve found another photo of Lucy, this time dating back to December 2010, when she was already 18 years old. Who knew she would live & love until she was 22?! She looks good in this photo. Our favourite girl… you’ll be laid to rest soon.

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